wow! i took 4 hrs nap! am i piG or waD? hahaha..no lah...weather nice to sleeP and my today's aim is to go back early and take nap...hahaha..

my house downstairs the swimming pool is ready but i have no time and chance to go swim! sHhez....sOmedaY i willl....hahaha...

saw some things that i dont tik i am supposed to see at suntec a few days ago..hmMMz...it must be hard on you to hear those mockeries on court during trainings...provided u know about the matter lah...i heard about something in which i find it damn funny also....on that same day..ahhaha..

[ Tues ]

went to highlight my hair...from a secondary school student...now i have become a poly student! aahhaha..according to some people...ahhaha..

Bought a Nokia 7360 hp for my mum...signed my plan and bought her the hp...i think it suits her alot...advance mother's day present....can see she's happy lah.hahaha. My brother commented that i bought such expensive hp for my mum...my dad said why waste money? hMMz....to me i dont think it's a waste of money ( although i dont have much savings ), cos my mum always tend to use only the spare phones and the lousier hp in the house, she will give us the priority to sign the plan and buy new hp..she will in turn use our phone..so wei da rite? so now i am getting her a phone to call her own =)

@ Nokia 7360..suits her right? hahah @

if i'm not going to be nice to her now and then...when should i be? after the day that i die? cannot be rite?....Life is short ah...come to think of it..i'm really afraid to lose my grandma...she's getting older each year...haiz..that's the problem of human cycle...

[ wed ]

went to volunteer after school in senior's class..so i had full day session again..ahahha...snow city is very cold! but not much to play..hahaha..only artitficial snow loh....but very very cold...the children kept dropping their gloves..so i had to take off mine and helped them put on....my hands were trembling lah....i tot my fingers were going to break!hahaha..

@ blur image of senior's fav.... =D @

after that went training...was really tired..can die lah...but training was fun ah..hahaha..i made alot of saves and some were funny some were nice...and to think that i'm supposed to be very tired...hahaha...can see that our forwards are getting better each week...sheryl,mare and farah...farah tends to run more now and take shots...sheryl accuracy of hitting the balls is getting better and better..and she's starting to take more shots le...mare's passing is better now too...esp with sheryl...maybe they sld work more on their passing...haha=)

yana came today...so nice to see her!! really miss her lah..come more for training k! =)

[ thurs ]

observation today....so many things to take note of...will try lah...ahahha..yeah..need to do more thinking now i guess...use my brain use my brain! =D

tmr training....happy...ahahhaa....i cant imagine if mr amir is going to stop floorball....so many shattered hopes and emptiness if he's going to do that..ahhaha...

that's all for now...someone commented that i gained weight...i dont think so leh...ahhaha...

Random pictures:

[at MINDS seminar..........]

* transform into the green grasshopper from maRs!hurHur... check out the 2 ppl behind the mighty grasshOpper...*gRAsP!*

* wah!! celebrity!! =D *

* wah wah! another celebrity!! *

* when 2 celebrities meet.............wahahaha! =p *

Random pictures.............................

[ sentosa ]

* sCAry!! guessing contest!guess who is the scary one!?of cos not me lah...ahahah =p *

* me acting coOl *

* me acting cool again..cant help it!hahahah *

hMmz...it has been quite sometime since i last bloggeD? one whole weeK? hahaha...too lazy..busy and tired to blog lah..hahaha..

well well well...havnt been sleeping well for the past 2 nights..was tired but when i close my eyes wanting to sleep,thoughts and things kept coming to my head to disturb my sleeP....irritating ah..but i cant help it...hMmz....hope that i can sleep better tonight! gonna change my bedsheet..hope it helps lah..ahahha..

Today after school the green bus cant start the engine...so we(some of the teachers including ms loke,leng leng,agnes,mei leng etc.) helped to push the bus.hahaha.quite fun actually lah.but very tiring cos there's a slope there.ahahha.after several attempts we managed to push the bus! yeah!ahaha...the scene quite funny lah..all teachers behind pushing..ahahha..untied ah we teachers? =D

The respose to my short short hair wasnt as bad as i thought...ahhaha...but i still not used to it lah =p ~~~~~~hair hair faster grow!~~~~~~~!

my short hair:

match against mOOOOo this sat..dunno if i can go not...senior dont think she can make it cos her cost more expensive than mine..hahaha..dunno if i can skip mine or not...$4 only...ahaha..see how loh =/ i wanna be there for my team....

thank you mather for the wonderful meal*hugz* =)

[sat]

played against the owls and i was asked to play an outfield player last min...so i went around borrowing stick,jersey and white shorts..thank you hui shan, leen and nisa! =D

i tik i ran alot...ahhaha...some fellow teammates corrected my mistakes while playing...kinda funny though cos it sound like as if i will be playing player for long =p i almost scored 2 goals!! whhahaha!!one despite my left and right forwards are empty..but i dont wanna miss the chance...cos it will be wasted if i passed too hard and my teammates cant rec the balls..i know my power cos i dunno how to control my power..hahaha..sorry ppl....but i didnt know they are there lah actually...ahhaha..too gan jiong le...

heard gary,ah ren and big mel cheering for me..haha...i tik they must be laughing throughout lah..ahahha..anyway..thank you you guys and grace and mei leng for coming to support!! =D

had a good experience playing outfield on that day...thank you gary and some of u for pursuading me and giving me the chance..ahhaha..but somhow..my hands were itchy to catch balls...guess i'm still confused..ahhaha! talk rubbish lah me..it will be nice if i cld play both..ahahha...but not a nice feeling..guess i will have to come to a decision to stick to one someday =/

will i forget how to love? hMmzz.....

stayed back in school the whole day today..one solution to make myself tired and save money by eating bread only....cham lah cham lah...hahaha...time passes so fast in schooll...come home only can sleep...so might as well stay in school to do some work...

why everyone likes to ask me this, "why stay back till so late? go home lah go home..." hahaha..

went gym today..HMmMz...i wonder if it helps..hahaha..

was surprised that you called today...anyway...dont be too sad about the lost hp k.A new phone will come by as time goes by.Parents wont nag at u for long...except my dad =D

so tired..want to sleep liao...good night...

well...

had MInds seminar today..the half day version...ahhaha..yeah...first speaker very interesting and captured our attention as she presents...she's Dr Low...the second speaker somehow...much more boring..ahahha..i tik cos he's more serious in presenting..* someone pulled my ear today..hahah..*

went far east to eat...the bbq honey chicken wasn't that wonderful afterall..HmMz..average loh..hahaha..yeah...was kana forced to go ktv in the end after drinking at Yakun..although i very much wanted to go back home and take my stuff and go training...*sigh* but i guess we dont have much chance to go out together like this...so decided not to go training..anyway Youth wasnt supposed to go for today's training..but..normally i will still go lah..but today exceptional...haah..

was sad to realise that i wasnt that close to my own mother as compared to another "motherly figure" that i had known since last year...cant blame anyone or anything about it....it started since young...and i suffered(family problems)....mostly to myself...that's how i grow up to be more independent....haiz...sad to say....but my parents are there for me sometimes when i needed them to be....sometimes lah....my dad starts to be nicer to me only after i found a stable job....really realistic....my mum is always my all time favourite! =D

Sad to say...we are not playing tmr's game again...hope the Youth team will play well..all the best girls! stay united k! =)

[ wed ]

went back sch today...a pity she's not there..haha...

watched "saving face" on my home computer..i must say it's really a nice show...with chinese ABC inside..haahha...something new...but dunno why no subtitle...so i think only chinese who understand english can watch the show..ahhaha..thumbs up!! =)

training today was ok...just that i wasnt that active in practising my throwings...i was playing with floorball sticks instead.hahaha.i am still wondering how it would have been now if i was a player...hMMz...ahahha...i tik i know wad reena is gonna tell me when she read this...ahahha =p

conceded goasl that are really nice! so i am not sad to concede those goals! hahahaha...really lah...cool goals...against me! hahaha..

sentosa tmr...hope em can join us... =/ hope that we can have fun! haha...

hMmz...am actually very tired now...hahaha..gEez..so fast tues over already.... =(

[ tues ]

my partner gave me a bottle of liang ca to drink when i went over to her place to pick up the book shelf that she picked up somewhere...ahahha..so tmr i am going to bring it to school and put in our class...it was quite in good condition though...thank you for the tea! so nice of her =))

went to watch "Nanny Mcphee" today and it turns out to be a nice and interesting movie! hahaha..that's how i feel about it lah...funny...but still have some doubts to some part of the story...nice and warm-hearted movie...not to forget that it's funny too..haha..nice for all ages to watch...aahhaah...went to watch at PS and it has been sOoO sOOo long since i watched a movie there...hahaha..met a few floorballers there as well..such a small world! one even in the same cinema right in front of me and my friend! hahaha..shall not mention who =X

every team has its own problems.......*siGh*

well...once again u made me smile with ur sms....interesting.... =D

hello...

hMMz...didnt sleep well this morning...was sneezing and blowing my nose all the way till i was tired then i fall asleep again...woke up...sneezed again...again the question pop out...is someone missing me or am i sick?hahahha....

going out later...where to buy dog food!?!? hMmz....

ohya...

forgot to mention that i dreamt of the world coming to an end again....last time was flooding...this time...volcano eruptions with lava flowing on the ground..killing people and destroying everything....but weird ah...i can still go watch movie with my friends while some people were like doing all the precautions to go to the safer place to stay put and stuff....weird weird weird....funny also lah..i dreamt that kk was parking her car at the car park...how dumb...ahahha..i meant the dream lah... =D other details i cant really remember....ahaha...so...

let's cheer for my werid dreams! interesting huh.... =p

[ mon ]

didnt have time to do my work...haiz...think i should play less and do more work?hMmz...but my everyday is more or less pack!! argh!

Then bought a new thumbdrive for $55...money fly away le...but i think it's kinda necessary lah..so...hMmz..try to save up? maybe i should stay at home more? hMmmz....difficult but can try when school reopens...ahaha..cos i will be more tired...

no money still went for ktv session..somemore is i suggest one..so spent around $20 on it..and i stupidly go drive to tam so in the end paid $5.50 for the carpark fee!! AhHHH!! I AM SO DUMB!!!!!!! i could have parked at home and took a bus down!! argh!!! DUMB DUMB DUMB!!! =(

well...ktv session was relaxing and tiring..ahhaha..sang a few songs...but it's enough lah..hahha..malina and vanessa were there...so something new..the 2 sisters joining us..haha..yeah..quite fun...malina has a nice voice though...her mother..ehs...powerful voice...ahahha..ah pek voice very sweet and van dont really dare to sing..so no comments..aahha..

ohya...van said that i'm her soft toy,,,,,,,,,what's that supposed to mean? -_-"

here are some photos we took at ktv................

some pictures are kinda funny huh?hahaha...

after that headed to bedok 85 to eat...had chicken chop my all time fav...was so full lah...had so much junk food these few days..think i better do something!! gEez....

max had a fall today...from the top of the slide...all the way to the ground...my heart is so damn pain lah......i was really worried...really very worried...he was really shocked and i scared that he will sprain his arms and legs....but luckily after some calming session..he was alright...*PHEW*
can run and play ball again...haiz...i'm sorry max =(

yesterday decided to went for training.Only saf from youth was there as the rest are not required to come.So the attendence was lesser than usual.but nvm lah..i always train alone...but got my players there of cos more fun and lively lah.hahaha.

made a really funny save in which the ppl there classified it as "good save"..the ball came flying in the air towards my goalpost then i punch it up away then it landed on the top of the net then after that rolled down to the side then almost went into the goalpost but i stop it in time!! hahaha!!!coOl huh...fuNny....i really love skools training..ahahhaha...funny stuff happens..ahahah..

reached home around 12+am and i am supposed to be home early cos next day got course..ahahha...

Then today...me and senior woke up late and so...both of us were late!hahahah..in the end we reached there at 9am instead..we were half an hour late..haahha..everyone was starring at us..hahaha..

the course is somewhat interesting...some of which i had learned before in poly...but it was really very long...so almost everyone were really tired and we took turns to doze off ah...aahahha...got a cert in the end =D

cant go for our game this morning cos of this course...me and senior somewhat felt really "empty" and we were really anxious about how the gers did at the game..we were bugging sharon to msg us...hahaha...we keep checking our handphones for new messages! haahha..in the end the girls wont 5-3...WELL DONE GIRLS!! cheerSS!!! =D but poor tortoise was injured...her old injury...next time must prepare the first aid kid ah..haiz...took injuries for granted..how can I!!? @_@

hMmz...duno why i enjoy sms-ing you......hahah... =j

*This is damn nice lah! hehe*

read a meaningful small book today that is encouraging...telling you about how much you should treasure your life and that ups and downs in life is not like the end of the world....true true...

cant help but notice that i have been updating my blog almost everyday..haha..nothing better to do mah...

dont feel like blogging too much also...dunno what to write...supposed to upload some pictures that we took on ant's bdae..hahah..here goes:

@ Teddy bear biscuits! @

@ ehz...who's tt? so rude..we taking photos leh....haha! @

@ we look alike? hahaha... @

@ tik better block that "person"..ahahha.. @

@ trying out the ice cream cake @

@ peri peri prawns! @

[ Wed ]

have been sneezing alot these few days..tues after school i was sneezing like almost 10 times continuously loh!gEez...dunno if i am sick or is someone missing me?ahahahha...

accident prone day today......

#1 : got clipped by the door in my classroom...*0Uch*

#2: duNno why got a lump on my frog foot after training...

#3: scalded my gum cos i ate mee soto too fast....!ahaah.. (ehz..this one no pix to show!ekke...)

ahhaha..actually not much lah..only 3 "injuries"...but in a day?ahhaha..

training today was not so bad...only very little keeper (2 or 3) so i have more playing time..and more time to train...still trying on my throws...ahahha..start to lose concentration in the end...cos was really tired...so in the end conceded quite a number or goals?hahaha..but i got quite a few compliments and praises of good saves from some of the players and from mr amir...happy.. =D

ohya...i bought a biscuit today! damn cute lah! will upload the pictures when ant sent me the photos..heheheh..quite nice to eat...! wooHOo!! =D

Today is ant's birthdaY...dont be too sad k? at least you still have me and peri peri prawns! hahaha...hope u had fun today!!!

HapPY bIrthday tO you...hapPY biRthday tO yOU...hapPy birtHDAY to anTz eh....haPPy birthday tO you!! =)

will upload the pictures sometime later...hahaha..

This morning took another ride from the 2nd most important person in the school...wah...dunno how to describe the feeling...the most impt and 2nd most impt people are so nicE! cheers! ehehe..

had swimming today...si hui kept touching me... -_-" but she's too cute to say NO to her lah!! my gosh! i scared i will be bias!!haahha..hopefully not lah...madam lee came and really nice to see her each time...she's one of our frequent volunteer... =)

i noticed that i have been seeing quite a number of gays each day...hMmz...yest saw a couple and one gay(female side kind)..the couple was holding hands...no negative feelings about it so i just smile to myself..ahhaha..dunno why also =j

Have been hearing news about short gun marriages from friends about their friends....some (the girls) were like only 19 this year and the other 20 yrs old...and there's this another one in which i do not know the age...to add on...the video of the nyp girl...in which we do not understand why nothing happens to the guy and all the limelight was at the girl? is it cos it's normal for guys to be "cheap" cos all they want from their gfs is u know what lah hor? so girls are consider "cheap" if they do it...

No wonder the older generations have bad impressions on the younger generations of these days...things are getting out of hand...girls who are conservative are gonna be extinct soon as they become more and more open-minded...they want to try out new things...not knowing the consequences....rather disappointed to see all these happenings...but i think it goes with the flow of a changing society...most nice and good guys are becoming gays and alot of pretty girls and women are becoming lesbians....how come? *shrugs*

Read from the newspapers and magazines about older men being perverts on the bus,trains,streets and many places...preying on young innocent school girls....aint they detestable? But nothing can be done unless the girls are taught to be more defensive about themselves...if not the pervert will continue doing the same thing to other innocent girls...

Some older men as they get older...esp those who are married...their wives will normally become less and less attractive as they become older as well...typical kind of aunties...you know what i mean lah...but this cant be help as the older men become less attractive as well...with those beer belly and stuff....but somehow or rather...they want more...those with money...they are willing to pay to have or enjoy the body of younger women..to to what they do when they were much younger...and for those who cant afford the money...they will prey on young school girls...why why why are all these things happening?

i guess it cant be helped....so there's only one solution to this problem...girls...PLEASE PROTECT YOURSELF and CHERISH your OWN BODY....

Got a ride from someone who wont normally stop to pick up teachers, this morning...luckily i think only agnes saw...ahhahaha...if not they will think that that person flavours me...in which of cos i dont think so lah..ahahha..

monday blue so my partner wear from top to bottom blue!aahahaha..today was ok la..punished a few students and blah blah blah..my back was kissed by irritating clement and cute si hui today..bOOhOoO...they molested me....haha...dunno how to react also... -_-"

wa so blur that i didnt know that my spects can actually be adjusted to make it tighter...all along i tot the design is like that one....-_-" so i went to the spects shop today...felt much better wearing it..ahahha..i so toot de... =( hahaha..

Thank you for accompanying me to the polyclinic today*hugz* =)

bought dinner for myself and my brother while going home...reached home around around 5+pm then took a 5 to 10 mins nap...was waken by max's licking... -_-" cos i slept on the floor...hahah..

finished up almost my work....felt so hardworking..unlike someone..didnt do hw keep talking on the phone...whahahhah!! kidding lah =P

that's all for now lah..i aiming to sleep early tonight...so..good night everyone! =D

didnt slept well last night but was somehow a new experience...YOU are just so hard to please! -_-" ahahhah! as in cannot anyhow stay in ppl's house..hahaha..next time dont stay here k..cos both of us will end up not having enough sleep again...ahahha...maybe i will go over =p rest well! =)

Today's match against Titans...i think we could have done better..haiz...i want to save as many goals as i can for the team but somehow or rather...i cant...i guess i miss being the only keeper in Youth...hahaa..say say only lah...but for 1st and 2nd periods i was like entertaining myself and playing a fool cheering for the team loh..dunNo anyone hears me not...hMMmz...

yUpz..so i only get to play the 3rd period...actually gary should have let me play more since i cant play for the next 2 matches..haiz...nvm lah..over le...i tik i made quite a few saves and we have one own goal again....that's when they start to score our only 2 goals..hahaha..cool...

every match is a learning experience......

so tired.....hopefully can sleep early later....good night ppl...

woke up late today =P i overslept so was late to meet my friend...supposed to meet at 12pm but i woke up around that time.hahaha! sorry!! but heng she also late but of course in the end she was still earlier than me lah ehehhe..

went to watch Tansmerica with 2 other friends today cos it's R21 so more difficult to find khakis to watch the movie with me.haahha.well...it was really a nice show lah.was paying attention to the movie throughout but somehow some part i dont get it.hahaha. It was an interesting show, funny as well...and the gays inside are all really cute looking! hahaha. i am sooOoO impressed...so i came to the conlusion that most gays are good looking...ahahha..

The son (who turns out to be a bisexual..good looking rite?haa) and the "father"

The movie is somehow really meaningful...for some people, you will never understand how much they want to be a man or a woman despite being in the "wrong" body, only themselves will know. It's the "feeling" and the "mind" that tells you who you want to be....surgeries to change your sex will boost up a transexual person's confidence definately...and i guess it takes alot of time,effort and courage to do it. But i find that it is easier for a "man " to become a "woman" rather than a "woman" to become a "man"...actually it depends lah...haha..yeah...

hMmz... a ride home = a lunch treat? not so bad afterall! =D

Now is sat 1:33AM....very tired but hair still wet so decided to blog...hahaha..well...have been lao-sai-ing for the past 3 days...dunno what happen to me also...so now stomach very flat...ehhehe...for now only lah...

[ Fri ]

Finally i get to get rid of my prata craving...ehhehe..had egg and mushroom prata...the mushroom prata was ok ok lah..the egg one is still the best! had so much egg this day..ehhehe..thanx guys for going arthar to eat with me! =)

wore my white "chicken brand" track pants to school today and it seems like my students like it cos they were like commenting on my track pants with their language..hahaha...then today si hui "played" with me and hit my stomach...i can hear a LOUD "TaRT" from my stomach..booOhOoo...

Found some interest in taking photos into the mirror =D

OHya to comment about today's training..hMMz...i tik i didnt play well at first but at the end i played quite well so i am more or less satisfied..hahaha..i really wonder how do i look when i was playing on court...look as in what kind of impression do i give people who do not know me? hMMmz.....

me and senior trying out each other's spectacles to kill time..hUrhurhur... =D

* try out 1 *

* try out 2 *

* take 1 *

*horrible take 2! *

[ wed ]

CCa day today...duno why felt really sian..in the end halfway through i went to play passing of basketball with Guvan(special class student) their class damn cute lah! ahahah =D

Clement acted up today with psycho and millian...haiz...hate him whenever he did that...damn irritating lah...but i cant be bothered with him...let agnes handle..hahah..

Had rice...abit of bee hoon and nice nice green bean soup in school today! cooked by aunty serene's sister ( just realised that i dunno her name ah...)! really nice...haiz..i miss green bean soup cook by ah ma!!! =(

Tried to take some nap before mum came home with the car...but cant sleep...cos whenever i close my eyes..i will see u..haiz..

Training today...initially i wasnt really happy with my play...made quite a few mistakes...but the last 10 sets i played quite well..made alot of saves and concede no goals =D

leen and serena told me that my throws has improved =)) really motivating to hear that..will work hard although my improvement is slow! =D

hurt my last finger of my right hand...was kinda swollen and looks blueblack...but this is common injury for goalkeepers lah..so kinda used to it le...haaha..forgot to ask zaf how's her results..hMmm...congrates reena for ur chinesE!! =p

The rascals in my class...only a few are guaiz -_-" (me in the background =p )

Despite being the more sensible child in the family, in order to help to ease the family burden,try to save some money by walking to the mrt station to and foe instead of taking the bus and by trying to eat cheaper and lesser meals, purposedly take out some of my time to have dinner with them, help to save electricity by not using the air con....it seems like i'm not very much appreciated...i'm always been not appreciated...be it by my family or some other people...

i wonder who are the people who will appreciate the things i do for them...is it so difficult to show that you appreciate a particular person for doing some particular things for you?

some people took me for granted and come to me whenever they have nothing to do or feel bored at home...if that person is out with friends, that person will not reply your sms or cant be bothered to reply u...do i look like an entertaining machine to u? or have you guys encounter this kind of people before? they SUCKS big time right....?

Parents always think that whatever they do..it's for the good of their own child but do they ever care about how their child will feel? will they ever let their child have a life of their own? To me...a good parents would be those parents that will give advices to their children whenever they need - guide them to the way of life before stepping into the working world...freedom and choice of life being lead our own way are all that their children (including myself) will ask for...

I guess at a point of life....we are forced to grow up, be more independent and to make decisions on our own....regrets do come but nothing can be done but to grief over it cos we can never turn back time...every second every minute of our life is precious....treasure them...cos that "moment" can never be replay....